When I look back at myself in the past, I've realised that I've hurt many people without realising it. (especially the boys who wanted to get to know me better)
I've always acted aggressive or hostile towards them, I killed their mood when they've tried to laugh with me by hitting them several times and shouting at them when they asked me something... And they began to hate me at the end...
Regretting for what I've done to them after all these years and after when I began to trust some boys... What I want to do right now is to apologize to them, even if they can't or don't read this.
"I'm sorry for what I've done to you in the past... My sincerest apologies... I've now realised my mistakes and I'm ashamed of it right now..."
Monday, 20 July 2015
Saturday, 4 July 2015
Anxiety & Distrust
I was a very anxious person in the past. I didn't dare to speak up my mind and I was even very cautious about my own actions (just to avoid any rejections or critisism). I was a very distrustful person... I didn't trust anyone except for those I have acknowledged as a very close friend.
I was a very aloof person and I didn't participate in group conversations because I didn't know what to say or I was just too afraid to get people's attention... I get really uncomfortable when people are looking at me. But now, I'm a little bit different (I've gotten tired of being too afraid because I don't even know what other people are thinking about me). I dare to speak up my mind this year thanks to some people who gave me advice and their support. People will know what you're thinking or feeling when you show or say it yourself. ;-) When you open up to some people, they will do it also to you.
When you begin to open up to someone, it means that you begin to trust that person.
Something very important to know is that no matter what you do, say or how you look like... Many people are going to judge you. Everyone gets judged... Ignoring those people is difficult, but you won't be happy if you pay too much attention to it. Just do things that you enjoy (if it's not against the law ^^'). You still have people who accept you the way you are.
Lots of love, hugs, kisses and GOOD LUCK! ◊◊(^_^)◊◊
I was a very aloof person and I didn't participate in group conversations because I didn't know what to say or I was just too afraid to get people's attention... I get really uncomfortable when people are looking at me. But now, I'm a little bit different (I've gotten tired of being too afraid because I don't even know what other people are thinking about me). I dare to speak up my mind this year thanks to some people who gave me advice and their support. People will know what you're thinking or feeling when you show or say it yourself. ;-) When you open up to some people, they will do it also to you.
When you begin to open up to someone, it means that you begin to trust that person.
Something very important to know is that no matter what you do, say or how you look like... Many people are going to judge you. Everyone gets judged... Ignoring those people is difficult, but you won't be happy if you pay too much attention to it. Just do things that you enjoy (if it's not against the law ^^'). You still have people who accept you the way you are.
Lots of love, hugs, kisses and GOOD LUCK! ◊◊(^_^)◊◊
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