Letting Love In

Hi everyone! ^_^ How have you been? I'm doing quite well, except for my voice. Cause I've lost it :')). Valentine's Day is just around the corner and I thought... Why not write something about "Love"?

To me, "Love" is a very complicated feeling because I haven't really experienced it (I'm 20 now... And yep, I'm a late bloomer). I can only feel "the love" for my family, friends and the other people that I care about. But I don't know how it feels like to "fall in love" with someone. And I know the reason why I don't...
It's because I don't let "Love" in. Letting "Love" in also means that you don't put up any (emotional) barriers/walls between your loved one and yourself. And the scariest thing is the feeling of being vulnerable and showing it to the one you love. I'm still NOT ready for it!

I'd rather give love and affection to someone than to receive it. (I feel really uncomfortable: getting a sudden hug from someone, even when that person is well-known to me or patting my head.)
I feel happy when my friends are happy with their loved ones, but I feel different when it comes to myself, because I don't think I deserve it... (Even when they've pointed out my positive aspects. ^_^') - Sorry!!

Letting "Love" in is something that takes time, whether it's over a short or a long period. You are the only one who's going to decide if you're ready for it or not. And if that person isn't respecting your decision(s), then he/she is not worthy of you.

Lovies & Good Luck!

Gratitude II

Hi everyone! It's been a very long time. How have you been? I'm doing very well at the moment. ^_^

I only wished you guys a Happy New Year last time and I hope that your Year had a good start. Mine did. But before that last post, I was busy with my preparations for my exam period and I was in a rehab (depression), too. And I'm still in a rehab.

In this chapter, I'm going to talk about things I'm grateful for.

I'm grateful for:

• having a loving family
• having supportive and considerate friends
• getting an education
• getting all those challenging opportunities: using a language that I'm not comfortable with, ...
• being supported during my rehab and getting a rehab
• having someone who scolds me when I'm doing something wrong
• all the facilities that my mother could provide us
• having my own privacy and freedom

And last but not least, I'm grateful to you for reading my posts.

I may be very ambitious, but being grateful with the current things that you have and the experience is much more important than just reaching your goals. It is really important to be present in order to live a truly happy life. And forgive yourself when making mistakes. (I tend to be very strict with myself cause I have very high expectations and standards when doing something. So I have to change myself on that aspect, too :'D)

Much Love & Good Luck!

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