Depression

Hi everyone... 

Today, I'm going to talk about how a person with a depression feels like cause I want to bring more awareness about that to everyone who's reading my blog. I've been there in the past and this time... it came back before I could even realize it.

A depression is first of all not an illness, but a disturbance of exchanging neurotransmitters and chemicals in your brain. The neurotransmitters play a very important role in your brain because they send and connect information to all parts of your brain. In short, they are the messengers of your brain. And the chemicals (serotonine, dopamine and norepinephrine) are the ones which regulates your body functions, moods and pleasure. ➤ The brain of the person who has a depression produces less of these chemicals.

Now, to me... A depression feels like a monster which devours all my will and happiness to do the things I love to do in my daily life. I can't think or do things properly, my head and neck hurt, I'm always afraid, tired and I have those dark thoughts every now and then. I don't really show those signs now, but I did show it 2 weeks ago. I didn't come out of my room for a few days till late in the night, I couldn't sleep and eat properly as before and my eyes looked lifeless. Beside that, I even avoided every social contact (family and friends) because I didn't want them to ask me if I was feeling okay. I've always avoided that question and now... I'm lying to them by saying that I'm fine or I'm feeling great with a bright smile on my face...

The depression (to me) is in short a monster which I have created. It comes when I'm in my most vulnerable state and then goes away after I've changed my mindset by seeking help and support from the others.

For those who have a depression right now... Please don't be ashamed of it. Having a depression is NOT a sign of weakness.

- Growing out of your depression is, learning to accept and embrace your thoughts without any guilt.-