Emotional scar and relationships

Hi everyone! How have you been lately? I'm fine at the moment.

Today I'm going to talk about emotional pain after a sexual assault/abuse. Children, women and even men who are/were victims of this will have trust and relationship issues later on. And I'm one of them too. 

I had difficulties with trusting other people and even myself. And I still kind of do to this day. I do trust my friends and family, but I am unable to fall in love or letting love in. I'm afraid to get hurt again, but on the other side... I do know that if I want to enjoy my life, I have to let love in. 

I'm on therapy right now and my therapist made me think about moments that made me feel safe and happy. It wasn't easy to think about one directly and it took me many minutes to find one. 

We did this to have some foundation before starting with the uncomfortable subject. 

Trusting and letting love in take a great amount of time and energy. I become very tired after a session of therapy or being with a loved one. There are people who are extremely patient with us and some don't. We have to take appreciation of those who are with us and letting those who aren't with us go. It will hurt in the beginning, but after that you'll realize that it's better that way. We can't be fated to everyone. It's better to let go of the meaningless relationships and to move on with those who are fated to be with us. 

I know it's difficult, but I've been there. There were some times when I began to hesitate about my judgements, but when time goes on... You'll become more confident. 

Good Luck! Let's all work together!! 💪🏻